Tq for everything....

Two years have passed since you and I broke up
but somehow it still seems like it was just yesterday
We've both gone our separate ways, but
occasionally I still find myself passing you on the other side of the street

I can't really say
that I'd like to return to that time, because it was very difficult, but
the truth is, even now I can't help but feel sad
because I still love you...
I was miserable, sad, and cried every night
You broke my heart, so I tried to forget you,
but for some reason I still think about you, don't I?
I'm just so lonely...

Where are you now, and what are you doing?
I wonder if you were ever able to fulfill those dreams that were so important to you...
Maybe I just worry too much about things like that, but
please, don't erase me from your life

Do you still remember? The tears and the smiles
that overflowed in those precious days
Then we wept together,
and said we'd meet again, that we'd never forget...
Even though I'm such a weak crybaby,
could we maybe walk together again?
I'll wait as many years as it takes for that day to come

Please let me hear your voiceI'm still right here
I'm not going anywhereI'll always, always be right here

I want to hear your voice, so I'll try calling you on the phone
But as I expected, you won't take my call...
Are you avoiding me? I don't understand it
Then one day I ran into you
You looked so happy, smiling, holding hands with the person you're in love with now

You looked so grown-up, so very beautiful
and although it should have made me sad, I was kind of happy for you
Just seeing your face and that you're doing well is enough...so I tried to act cool
I couldn't say anything, though, as I tried to hold back my tears
So I just gave you a little wave
to say "thanks" and "I'm doing fine"

So goodbye to you
Even now, I still wish you nothing but happiness
You, the person who I love so much, who soon I won't get to see anymore
Really, thank you from the bottom of my heart
So goodbye, please be well
Until the day we meet again...

My Heart Draws A Dream

Salam,

Fuuhhh...beberapa hari yg penat nih,wat aku jadi malas nak update blog aku. Jadi malam ni aku gagahkan gak la membuka laman blogku ni..aku perati jer smer dlm blog aku nih,rasa cam kusam la plak,ingat nak edit gambar background,tp kemalasan tu masih lagi menebal dalam diri so,aku ingat tangguhkan la nanti2 la bila mood rajin tu datang lagi.

Aku peratikan balik tajuk blog aku ni, My Heart Draws a Dream...ya sebuah tajuk yang aku petik dari sebuah tajuk lagu,juga dengan harapan untuk diriku sendiri tuk melupakan hal2 silam dan menuju ke masa depan mencari hala tuju,impian dan cita-cita diri aku.

But it seems that no matter what,and how much u want it to be,things would never be as you wanted,always.There will always be obstacle for u to pass through,or unforeseen circumstances that will somehow deviates you from your path.This is where the true battle begins,and whether u survive it or not,depends on your willpower and determination.

Well,my battle ain't over yet. There's still a lot of paths for me to undertake,a lot of challenges from inside out,especially from the past i wish to get rid off...no matter how hard it is,i still got to try,even when all my limbs were torn apart...and no breath left inside of me..

Ain't Afraid To Die

Song : Ain't Afraid to Die
Mood : neutral

Kosong....mcm tu la rasanya diri aku sekarang ni.Mungkin aku kurang berusaha,mungkin juga ni satu ujian yang diberi atas kesilapan diri aku pada masa lalu. Sehingga kini aku masih menganggap diriku hidup di alam mimpi,satu mimpi yang ngeri di mana aku masih belum terjaga lagi...dan memang pun,aku kini sedang bermimpi,di dunia yang penuh tipu daya,kesesatan,kegelapan,ketakutan,yang memang sentiasa menghantui bukan sahaja diriku,tetapi juga setiap manusia yang hidup di muka bumi ini.

Kadang2 aku rasa sunyi,kadang2 sayu,kadang2 emotional yang aku sendiri pun tak sangka aku jadi macam ni. Sunyi di tengah majlis keramaian,sunyi ketika bergelak tawa dengan rakan2,sunyi ketika berhibur..sunyi...aku banyak kali juga cuba melawan,tapi aku merasakan diri aku ni belum cukup kuat lagi tuk menempuhi kesunyian yang mendatang.Cuba berfikiran optimis,tapi kadang2 bertukar menjadi pessimist kerana pengaruh persekitaran yang kurang membantu.Rasa amat tak terdaya sekali,cuma boleh melihat tapi tidak mampu melakukan apa-apa...Kerdil rasanya diri ini,yang dulunya amat yakin dengan kemampuan diri sendiri...

Ya Allah,ampunilah dosa hambamu ini...give me peace in my life,and help me to get through the darkness with Your light...Aku berserah diri padaMu,baik zahir dan batinku,segalanya adalah untukMu...bantulah daku Ya Allah...kuatkanlah hambaMu ini,tingkatkanlah amal hambaMu ini,tetapkanlah hatiku,kuatkan semangatku, agar aku dapat menempuhi hari-hari yang mendatang mencari keredhaanMu Ya Allah...