Still Hopeless?

2 hari yg lepas Hani msg aku, dia kata dia tak sihat,kena chickenpox. Aku rasa cam nak gelak pun ada,and aku ingat nak jer sound kat dia, naper tak cakap kat Abg Hady syg tu.....naper nak gak cakap kat aku?aku bukannyer bf dia lagi.Tapi tak tau la,agaknyer still sayang lagi, aku tak boleh, lembut benor hati ni rasanya bila dgn org yg nama Hani nih...

Pagi td aku msg dia lagi. Bukan apa, walaupun dah jd ex, tp aku still care kat dia lagi.Susah senang sama dah lama,takkan aku leh ignorekan dia. Tmbh2 dia jenis delicate, ala2 kotak yg isi penuh ngan gelas kaca, handle with care, lagi la aku takleh. Ktorang borak2 lg, dan yang pasti, aku konfius...sama ada pilihannya Hady or aku.

Dia byk ngadu ngan aku semenjak dia couple ngan Hady ni. Aku pun tak paham, kenapa aku? rasa sakit hati makin tambah ada la. macam2 dia cerita pasal Hady, geram la, benci la...but dah kalau camtu,naper tak tinggalkan ajer....aku betul2 tak paham hati minah sorang nih....aku ni kalau kira baik lagi leh terima dia,kalau org lain mau dihambat jauh,peduli apa lg sama hal dia nih...

Wat masa dia ni dia wat aku cam ada harapan lg tuk dptkan dia...tp pada masa yg sama dia cuba hilangkan harapan tuh,smp aku pun tak tau yg mana satu? nak kejar,atau lupakan,kejar,lupa,kejar,lupa....arrgghhhhhh aper aku merapu nihh....aku pun dah mereng pikirkan benda ni....malas la lagi nak tulis kang lg mereng gua...chow dulu nanti aku tulis lagi...blah dulu....

Enjoy Cureless - L'arc~en~Ciel..betul2 kena ngan keadaaan diri aku skang



Cureless - L`arc~en~ciel

Itami o oboete yuku
GARASU koshi no omoi wa tada mitsumeru dake
afureru yasashisa o
mikansei na boku wa dakishime rarenakute
I keep remembering the pain
Just staring at your thoughts through the glass
The overflowing kindness
Can't be embraced by an incomplete me

Aishikata o shiranai
Boku wa anata sae mo nakushi soo
Muyuubyoo no yoo ni
Toki o kizamu hari o sagashite mo
mitsukaranai
Not knowing how to love, it seems I've lost you
Even if I search for the hand of the clock that ticked away at the seemingly sleepwalking time
I won't find it

Furete shimae ba
Togire soo na anata wa setsunakute
Otoshita shizuku hiroi atsumete mite mo
ai ni wa naranai
It would be too painful to stop being touched by a seemingly interrupted you
Even if I tried to collect all the fallen drops, it wouldn't become love

Kono yoru tsukamaete mo
Onaji yoo ni ano hito no namae yobenai
Arekara ari fureta
Yume ni nemuru yume o mitsuzuketeiru yo
Even if this night catches me
I can't yell that person's name the same way
Sleeping in this reccuring dream
I'll just keep dreaming

Aishikata o shiranai
Boku wa anata sae mo nakushi soo
Muyuubyoo no yoo ni
Toki o kizamu hari o hayamete mo
samayotteru
Not knowing how to love, it seems I've lost you
Even if the hand of the clock that ticked away at the seemingly sleepwalking time speeds up
I'll still wander about

Shiroi toiki ni furueteiru anata o iyasenai
Hareta kono te ga
Kizutsukete shimau kara itami wa kienai
I can't stop you from shaking in these white sighs
These withered hands
Can't erase your wounded grief

Furete shimae ba
Togire soo na anata wa setsunakute
Otoshita shizuku hiroi atsumete mite mo
ai ni wa naranai
It would be too painful to stop being touched by a seemingly interrupted you
Even if I tried to collect all the fallen drops, it wouldn't become love

Shiroi toiki ni furueteiru anata ga setsunakute
Sotto daki yoseta anata no mukoo gawa ni
ano hi no watashi ga yurete kieta
It's painful for you in these white sighs
Gently embracing you, on the other side
The me of those days fades away